Category: relationship

Sorry, Not Sorry

Never feel sorry for leaving,
When he never really made you feel the need to stay. 

Never feel sorry for leaving,
When there’s no more trust left to give.

Never feel sorry for leaving,
When he did the first move to push you away.

There’s really no need to feel sorry for leaving.

You can’t even make up a reason to be there anyway.

#TheRadDollWriting

Stifled Heart

I search for you in a crowd. 
I don’t want to, 
but I do.

I try to hear your laugh in a sea of voices.
I don’t mean to.
Still, I do.

I reach for you on the empty space of my bed.
I don’t intend to,
but I do.

I dig up images of you in my head.
I don’t really want to.
Still, I do.

I psych myself to unlove you.
I really have to,
but God, I still do.

#TheRaddollWriting 

Just Memories

I thought i remember him.

All the kisses and the sweet nothings; 
The way his hand feels;
His laugh that crowds the room;
The expression on his face when our eyes meet;

Every familiar place we went to;
The fire that burned in his warm sad eyes;
The love he thought would move mountains.

I thought i remember every little thing.

The sad endings and half truths;
All the lies kept hidden,
The tears muffled in secret;
His absent mind that stays but is never there; 

The guilt that covers up all the other feels;
Every second lost to his waiting game;
Every shade of him lost to doubt. 

I thought i remember everything.

But then again, it’s hard to trust just the memories.
Pain and time had distorted the warmest, the wildest, the worst thoughts i have of him. 

I realize,

I know nothing. 

When i thought i knew everything. 

Pit Stops and Contentment


The great Tolkien once wrote, “Not all those who wander are lost.” -That is so true! In the end, Destiny always reveals itself, no matter how far you’ve walked, no matter how long. 💭

It may take you a while to get where you want to. Maybe even longer than planned. You may need to rest, go on pit stops once or twice… maybe countless times. It may become more difficult as you go further. It will be tiresome and relentless.  You’ll probably trip and fall and lose your spirit at times.

You may lose people along the way; possibly even yourself. There may be distractions. There may be obstacles. People to deal with. Things to figure out. Your own demons to face. It could go on and on and the list of negative forces that test your courage may never end. 

The journey might exhaust every bit of your existence and test your will until the last second. It may be a rollercoaster ride. It can be.. and it will be tough without a doubt. But the path goes on and the stakes get higher everytime, leaving you no room for weakness. 

The possibility of failure lingers every step of the way and it’s terrifying. The tides will roll in and they’ll be unstoppable. You must not let yourself be swept away in oblivion, defeated in every way. You’re going to need to learn to pick yourself up and feel good about it everytime. You’ll gain people as you move on-friends, lovers, family. It will be tempting to depend on them; but you will only TRULY have yourself to rely on about pretty much everything when the shit hits the fan.

It will be tough. It will be risky. . You may lose courage and think about giving up. It’s not going to be a smooth sail, it’s not going to be a walk in the park. It’s going to be overwhelmingly difficult but it will be one hell of a challenge, one hell of a ride. 

So, go where your passion leads you today. Don’t think twice and better set your heart for pain and greatness at the same time. Expect the “dreadful” unexpected. Psych yourself and temper your mind. Don’t settle and never falter until you reach where you picture yourself to be. That is your real stop. And it’s called SUCCESS-where the winner is yourself and the prize is contentment. 

#JustLive

Love is Blind 

It’s probably human nature that when people get attached, they initially turn against their worth and devalue themselves for the sake of the one they think they love. 

And when the shit hits the fan, they go and chase what they really deserve from day one. It’s beyond question, Love blinds even the keenest most logical sight. 💭

#JustLive